I express what I think through the ink When my pen drips; I sink Depression is the tip and I'm mending Regret is so gone, I'm so past comprehending The pixels on the screen scream at me; I'm insipid I woke up this morning and I did't feel the pain at all My canvas wasn't blank, figured I should paint this song If I possessed a pistol, I'd just paint the wall Instead I pen my lyrics; I embrace the fall This ocean holds no hope of floating And I don't know where I'm going But I don't wanna be that guy So I...I...I I fly away I wear my insecurities like a blanket; Draped over my shoulders like a cape When I feel low and I can't manage Close my eyes and I fly away My nerves get the best of me, often. Often my friends speak To me about my problems, offering a shoulder for me to lean I feel mean as I reject their affection, but just penning A new song's on the agenda whenever depression smothers me My mother left in November. She won't be back ever it seems But the fucks I give about that are equal to the sum of three Minus three, then subtract about another hundred or so I don't know if the resent she left behind'll ever go I wrote a Summer song in the Winter, got The Winter Shade to sing the hook Got my friend to listen to it, the response she gave to Woop Had me thinking about a label, radio stations and a new look But I had to slow my role, cos I mean, my name is PuKe But my name is fuck King Tommy, she reminds me when she tells me Said that we should wait 'til Summer, get some icecream with my jelly Jealous, but she told me that she plays me daily. Struggling Juggling like the clown I am, feeling foolish, wish I could fly away I'm managing but barely, feeling happy but I'm wary Aware that where I am is a chasm and it's scary Cos the glass reflects so brightly that I'm sure I must be right That this bridge I'm standing on, yeah, it must be catching light I'm thinking You Shall Know as I set my velocities Knowing if I jump high enough, no one's stopping me Feeling like a bird though, these tribes they copy me Pray for my prey, I won't accept apologies I ain't signed a deal, yet. No label shall be dropping me High above the mountain; nobody gets the drop on me Probably conceited, I don't eat defeat sloppily; I clean up my plate. That lesson was learned properly Cos the more that doesn't kill me, the stronger I become plus The more that doesn't fill me, the more becomes my hunger I'm just seeking thrills 'til my heart's too weak to live My weeks all feel like one, that's when I fly away

Crippling stage fright and it's taking over my mind Sitting up every night but I can't seem to write Writer's block - feels like all I ever do is talk Can I walk the walk? Am I gonna fall? Cos the fear of this feat has weighed to my knees Can't wait to retreat from the pain of defeat The man I try to be is head and shoulders over me And I can't seem to reach all the things I try to achieve When I'm backstage and I hear the beat play I'm a boat in the sea - feel me drifting away The ebb and the flow coarsing through my veins I'm at tide in the tirade of sound in the waves I'm crashing out to rock as I'm rocking to the moon My ship comes to shore and I feel it's too soon But I'm sure I'll set sail again no more run aground I'm a sun in the sky above the sea and the sound Then the morning comes and it feels far away Stuttering and it's like I can't think of what to say And I question if it happened cos that was yesterday It comes crashing down as the memory fades Shades of insecurity crawling through my mind As I pull on the cord that closes up the blind I'm not ready to face the world outside So I turn off my speakers and I hide Playing in the night I'm tuning my guitar Playng in the night I'm gonna take it far